Note2selfBreath

made a lil entrie in my old lj.
i think i wil go back to using that one.
to whoever would like to add it back :]

I hate it when you say things that you never really meant to say, but it was the first damb thing that came out of your mouth cause you had no time to think and it was such a quick response. Then later you regret saying it because it wasn't what you wanted to say and it went along so much differently in your mind nights before. But you still sit there upset wishing that it would of just gone smoothly the way you had hoped, but there is nothing you can do now because it's all said and done and you would look like a complete fool to even think about changing the words that you have already said. First time in a long time and now all i want to do is sleep until it goes away and i stop thinking about it.

ihad fun this weekend.
:]

Jackson Elem. Grads haha


this is gaels toy, haha we hung it up from the porch and he gets so mad cause he can't take it off haha it just looks funny cause we hanged him!



My weekends was just great :]

I took this picture of my little sister, quality is bad cause i made it so small
but it's creeping me out how fast she's growing up she's not even 15 yet!

the end.
cant wait till schools over!

So recently i saw Brand New, Manchester orchestra.... ummm
thanks they were so great!!! i loved them, and i wanted to cry.
It was srsly hands down the best show i've been to since like
Dashboard and weezer haha. Life is going masomenos i guess
nothing bad, just trying to live it. Trying to lower down the anger haha.



I came home this weekend, well like almost every other weekend.
I dont know who ever said leaving your home and all ur wonderful 
friends was a great thing. Cause well im all alone in San An. and
my loved ones are here. I had fun friday, just chilled drank with my family
and pammy :] Saw joey, missed seeing a buncha other people though :[

Then end..

This is day one of the forgotten.

what happen to the times when there was no worrie in the world,
when i felt like my life was so in control. I like to always make myself
believe something which isan't completely true. I have lost the touch,
of knowing what i trully feel. I just hate the feeling of blurting out shit
that  regret saying a minute later. I hate the feeling of being hated. I just 
wish i knew what the fuck i am trying to do to myself, or where i want to 
be, or how i want to feel.

I have no control
and it's the worst
feeling ever.

Starting Fresh.

:]